Making some progress

I’m making some progress on the pregnancy front. I couldn’t be more thrilled. The doctor reported that I’ve dialated 1 cm at 35 weeks. We had an ultrasound and our baby girl is already weighing in at 6 lbs. 6 oz. and has some hairs on that sweet head of hers. I’m pretty excited about that. Not the weight as much as the hair. I can’t wait to put some hair bows in it!

My obgyn also mentioned she’ll “intervene” at 39 weeks – so that’s some happy news to me. Instead of 5 weeks, I have 4 and I’ll take it. I’m fine with induction – we did it with our first born and we’re pretty pleased with the labor and delivery then. I know some people hate induction but for me its the way to go - I like knowing when.

There’s an end in sight and while I know I’ll miss keeping her safe inside, it’s time she gets into the world where we can kiss and cuddle her and enjoy her.

I’ve gotten some info about a doula in my area so that’s going to come in handy and my mother and I recently worked through some stuff so hopefully things are on the mend there too. I’m reaking with positivety today. Time for a shower.

Renewing with MOMS Club or Not ? (aka the LONGEST blog evah!)

A little over 3 years ago I joined a MOMS Club in my area. I was hesitant for several reasons.

1. I’ve never had long standing relationships with women or BFF’s because of the usual bitchiness and cattiness that often follows when involved with a group of women.

2. I was still adjusting to being a SAHM and didn’t know where I fit.

3. Getting involved with a group usually meant donating time and I didn’t want to get used.

For the first couple of months I was still on the fence. There seemed to be some groups within the club that I couldn’t find my nitch with and I started to feel insecure and didn’t think I’d ever fit in. I decided that I had joined this club and I’d give it my best effort for a full year. I’d volunteer for what I could do, and embed myself in the groups and attend as many activities as I could. After all there were MANY reasons why I did join and I needed to explore each of them. My reasons for joining were aplenty…

• Socialization for my son and myself.
• The need of support from stay at home moms in my area.
• Fun activities to do with my son and friends.
• A feeling of purpose and accomplishment through volunteering.
• To find my way as a mother and ENJOY being at home.

I think I’ve accomplished those goals and then some in the past few years. My son who was 9 months old when I joined is almost 4. I was basket case when he was 9 months and now I feel more grounded and confident in my abilities as a mother. Josh being the first born in both of our families – had ZERO playmates and now he reminds me OFTEN that he has,  “…school friends, soccer friends, swim friends, and other friends.” My friendships have also grown since joining. I’ve met several really cool girls and we’ve become good friends. We have somewhere and something to do virtually every day we want to get out. In fact, most days we are occupied with friends and fun things from 10 to 2! Talk about socialization and fun activities – on those fronts we are not lacking!

 

Grosss!

I was working on my family blog today, a site that’s intended for my family’s eyes only and today someone found it by searching for – FREE PREGNANT PORN. Yes you heard me right.

I just can’t seem to find an angle to those search terms that would be appealing to A-N-Y-O-N-E.

But there you go – you crazy person. If you have a belly button fetish – well play on playa because boy oh boy do I have an outie with this pregnancy.

I’m 33 weeks today (pic was taken at 30 weeks) and this little girl is hanging like a possum from my rib cage. And – it hurts.

Only enough weeks left to create deep stretch marks and restless nights. Joyful.

Real Men of Genius / Happy Father’s Day

I’m not a great wife though I try.

I don’t have the best role models for being a wife. My mom, aunts and even stepmom didn’t set the best examples. Their way of dealing with spousal problems was to complain about them to everyone else but to not ever address marital problems with their husbands. I’ve overcome this with a serious learning curve but I like to think that I’ve got this one beat.

Still I admit to not being a stellar wife. I don’t tell my husband often enough that I appreciate him. I don’t give him the credit he deserves for being a great father. I rarely thank him for the sacrifice he makes by working 40 hour weeks then coming home to play with his son and often cook dinner. I could go on but won’t because I don’t intend to have a pity party or beat myself up. I just wanted to acknowledge that I know I don’t do the best job at being a wife.

Jason’s pretty great really. He’s endlessly thoughtful and creative with showing me how he loves me. He’s soooo understanding and mostly a good listener. When I need a night out with friends he’s always willing to handle bedtime for our son to give me some time out. He is pretty understanding when I bite his head off only later to come back and tell him, I’m sorry its pms. Jason’s always on my side – always. He’s been great through ups and downs for me personally and within our relationship.

So, this Father’s Day – Here’s to you Father of my Child and Super Star Husband! /Real Men of Genius/ You know you have a bad ass family and you want to spend time with them. /You rock hard core!/ Father of my Child and soon to be children, you move mountains … of clothes from one couch to the other so we can cuddle as a family. /You want some action but you play it real cool/ You might not see your wife’s ass outside of the shower but you happily wipe your child’s poo off the carpet /wiiiiping poo/ You – Father of my Child and Super Star Husband are the love of my life and I hope that you have a great Father’s Day.

 

10 Reasons I Should Have Stayed in Bed Today

1. I was tired.

2. I’m pregnant.

3. My mother pissed me off before 9 AM.

4. I have run my legs off all day.

5. I went to an appreciation lunch only to be bored out of my mind and then treated shitty by a bitch.

6. I have other things to do.

7. My baby has lodged her feet in my ribs and it hurts.

8. My best friend is moving to Russia in 2 months.

9. I have a headache.

10. I’m sensitive today and want to cry over everything.