My final days as the Mother to one

I have approximately 3 days and 15 hours until I go to the hospital to be induced. The doctor gave the word that we’re going to induce this pregnancy. Let me tell you that I’m thrilled beyond belief.

I’m ready for Lauren to get here and all the happiness that will bring. I’m also sad to see my world as a Mom to one change. Josh has been such a blessing and while we have had our rough spots, more often than not we have a GREAT time together. I’m sad to see those alone times go. I plan to make weekly dates – just him and I even after she’s born. I know this is all a happy change but to me its also bittersweet.

When Josh was born, I knew our life would change and while its been great there’s been a serious sacrifice between my husband and I. We don’t have much alone time, just us (not that we mind the 3rd wheel thrown on or now even the 4th, but it is a sacrifice to our marriage and our time as friends too.

This time I know what changes are in store for my husband and I (or at least I’m kidding myself into thinking so). It’s the changes between my relationship with my son that I’m worried about. Some things are just inevitable still I can’t help it. I don’t want him to get mad at me for not having room on my lap for him some days or for not having time (that exact moment) to read to him, or take him to bed, or watch him whistle, or FILL IN THE BLANK. I’ll try my damndest to make that time and reality is that my focus will be divided and initially it won’t be in his favor. He’s bound to be upset about that because I am and its not even happened yet.

So please share your tips for coping with the change of going from the Mom of one to 2+.

Friday & 37 weeks preggo

I don’t know what I want to write about today. So I’m just going to see where my thoughts take me.

I had a good doctor’s appt on Thursday. I’ve dilated another cm so I’m up to 2 cm. I know that’s progress, but somehow I thought I’d made more progress than that in the 2 weeks since I last saw my dr.  As I’ve mentioned numerous times – I’m done with pregnancy this time around. I don’t (currently) mourn the nearing end and my ability to keep her all to myself and safe inside. This time I want it to conclude – like tomorrow. My Dr. did say she’ll induce me at 39 weeks and delivers on Tuesday or Thursdays so we’ll schedule that at next weeks appointment.

ALSO – I won a Fisher Price Easy Clean High Chair from Similac or some formula company who was holding a contest at my dr.’s office. Strange – I don’t remember entering to win but – I’m nothing but grateful.

In other bitching news – I received word that the crib we bought was recalled recently. Something about a strangulation risk. So you could say that the nursery WAS ready for my baby’s arrival. And it was looking cute too!

Our Recalled Crib

I am realizing I’ve not shared our baby’s name with the internets as of yet. We are having a girl and her name is Lauren Paige. I made this for her room:

L is for Lauren

In other news, updates and whatnot…

I decided to renew with my MOMS Club chapter. I know, I know… we’ll see how this year goes and if I’m still not enjoying it I won’t renew. Really its no skin off my teeth (does anyone know what that even means?) and I don’t HAVE to participate with anything. So I’ll reevaluate in a year.

My BFF within The Clique IS moving in a few short weeks to Russia. Very sad about this though my hormones are working against me on expressing it. Movers are literally at her house packing up everything in boxes – EVEN the SOFA! Don’t ask me how or why you’d pack a couch in a box but I guess the movers know best. Plus this is the “sea shipment” so better to box it than ___________? Next will be the air shipment and then she’ll be gone. I will be losing my partner in crime, my drinking buddy and it’s just bad. Bad timing since I’ll have a newborn, bad in the regard that she’s like me only 5 years in the future, bad because I won’t be able to just call her whenever. So it should make for some tears and frustration. I mean its bad enough when she goes out of town for 2 weeks – but 3 WHOLE FREAKING YEARS!? Yeah.

My son will be in a day camp all of next week. Good and Bad. Good because I’m worthless to him right now. I’m not fun at all. I’m drained and tired and would be happy to park it on the couch all day if it weren’t for those damn hemmroids! Bad because it’s our last week together before the baby comes (going to be induced the following week) and I’d LOVE to do fun things with him before Lauren peaks her head out. Still – I”m limited these days and I know he’ll have a better time at camp than at home with my lazy pregnant ass.

Guess I had a lot to say after all. And BTW, I’m REALLY working on being more positive! The hormones are getting the best of me.

Twitter & a Potpourri of Crap

So I got sucked into Twitter. I’ve protested for no rational reason other than its another thing to do. If you want to follow me: http://twitter.com/lindsee1996

Today is my 8th wedding anniversary. Happy 8th Jason. Love, hugs and kisses, and all that shiz.

I’m full of bitchy today. I had a very nice day planned and all of my plans went down the toliet by 9:30am. Yes, 9 freaking 30.

Was reading a fav blog of mine and saddened by the news – http://messingwithtexas.blogspot.com/
Sorry to hear that Tessie, I’ve been reading your blog for awhile now and I’ll be thinking of you and AD.

Planning a family reunion which just happens to be taking place a month after I’m due to have this baby. No real help from anyone and people aren’t paying the $ for the reunion dinner.

I got my hair cut and colored. It’s brown now or mocha as the stylist called it. lol I also had bangs cut and my hair looks like this girls: http://girlsgonechild.blogspot.com/ I think she is gorgeous. I don’t think I pull off the look.

Got a bunch of swag from my inlaws. When I asked why I was getting goodies the answer: Because you’re having a baby. So by my math: stay married + have more babies = more presents?

July 4th

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Originally uploaded by j_sanchez

I love the 4th of July. It’s by far my favorite holiday. The cookouts, going to the lake, river or pool, being with friends and family, the fireworks, smores!, the patriotism, independence in all forms, summer time, camp outs, beautiful sunsets followed by amazing fireworks.

I tried to explain this in a simple way to my son. After the fireworks, he tells me that its his most favorite holiday ever – too. Here’s my son, as I’ll always remember him on my most favorite of holidays.

This year, its just the 3 of us – you, your daddy and me. In a few precious weeks we’ll have an addition to our family, our sweet Lauren. I will never forget the time I’ve had with you – just you and me. You are my sweetheart, my big boy and I love you more than anything.

Making some progress

I’m making some progress on the pregnancy front. I couldn’t be more thrilled. The doctor reported that I’ve dialated 1 cm at 35 weeks. We had an ultrasound and our baby girl is already weighing in at 6 lbs. 6 oz. and has some hairs on that sweet head of hers. I’m pretty excited about that. Not the weight as much as the hair. I can’t wait to put some hair bows in it!

My obgyn also mentioned she’ll “intervene” at 39 weeks – so that’s some happy news to me. Instead of 5 weeks, I have 4 and I’ll take it. I’m fine with induction – we did it with our first born and we’re pretty pleased with the labor and delivery then. I know some people hate induction but for me its the way to go - I like knowing when.

There’s an end in sight and while I know I’ll miss keeping her safe inside, it’s time she gets into the world where we can kiss and cuddle her and enjoy her.

I’ve gotten some info about a doula in my area so that’s going to come in handy and my mother and I recently worked through some stuff so hopefully things are on the mend there too. I’m reaking with positivety today. Time for a shower.