It’s your big day Mom and I wish I could make it a good one. But, I don’t know what it would take. I’m sad at the state of our relationship and the state of our family. I blame you a lot for that. So I’ll try to act happy and put on a mask and pretend everything is ok but its not. Truth is you’ll probably never know how upset I am over it.
I do want you to have a good birthday so in the typical fashion of our family I’ll suppress my feelings and hide it all away.